.I am writing this article at a time in my life in which my friend deserted me. It hurts me because I thought she really cared and it confused me so...the sudden change. I now know that when things get rough, you discover who your friends really are. I miss her.. Yet, I know it will never be the same.
Saying goodbye to a friend isn't easy. And sometimes our good-byes, like our emotions, don't make perfect sense. It's ironic how when you find a friend, this friend treats you as a really good friend at first because you are new, but then starts to fall away. This happened to me several times on occasion, and when the friend falls away, the mask is removed.
I still see her face in my dreams and It hurts and it doesn't help me at all. I still want her in my life and I want to catch her when she falls. I still remember the first time I met her. There was something so different about her. Her friendship was something I wanted to get and I can remember her smile when she said hi to me.
Out of no where we exchanged our phone numbers and she called me on the phone. I cant express my feelings when I heard her voice. I wanted to sit there and talk to her forever. She was new, crazy and unknown. I just felt this friendship is so different and it will never end.
Whenever I was down and blue she was always there. No matter my problems are, she was always there.Whenever I felt like nothing matters,she was always there.Now she is gone, and I don't know what to do. I close my eyes and think of her and how she was always there.
Initially, I thought its just a matter of time before our friendship blossoms.So, i gave some time to heal and called her on her mobile. But, most of the time the mobile keeps on ringing or it says the user is busy but never answered. That's the time I understood she doesnt need me at all.
It's hard to look at the pictures, and get memories of the good olden days. When you lose a friend, your feelings are very volatile. You begin to tumble, crash and fall through ever minute and every second that she is gone.
Pain... Tension... Fatigue...Depression...Anger...Aggression, Frustration.All these unwanted sensations is leaving my heart cold and fearing. I feel she doesn't need me any more. I used to tell her everything and now we sometimes don't even say hello anymore.
I feel betrayed and all alone, like everything is a lie. I am trapped in a world of anger and rage. No one seem to see what I am going through this time, or understand why.
I see myself sitting sadly in the corner, Knees drawn up tightly to my chest.Mind and body wreaked in sorrowAs tears course down my face.As I sit here all alone,I wonder whether she will see this article and understand what sort of pain i am going through.
Moral of the story: All that is left is the hurt and the absence in my heart, that of which nobody can ever refill.Always remember the good times of friendship, and remember what was, not what has become of a good situation into a bad. Always stay positive. Friendships are the best, don't let them die.
